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When Dreams Change



Dreams Change

It was always a dream of mine to become a full time practicing artist.

I made that dream a reality in 2009. At first, I loved it and spent many hours creating. I was going in the right direction to achieve my dream and having some success doing it. That felt right for awhile but I started getting more and more disenchanted with my dream!  

I started to have dis-ease in my heart. 

I was feeling empty. Don't get me wrong - creating is a very important part of who I am. But somehow this dream wasn't totally fulfilling like I thought it would be. 

There was something missing. Being a full-time artist felt selfish and indulgent. The only connection I had was to my art and creativity. I did not have any real human connection. I wasn't serving anyone! 

I am a very introverted person and at the same time, I need deep meaningful conversations. 

I felt empty. I had always been in a career where I served people and this was the missing component. Creativity alone was not filling my heart. 

I needed more!  

I started teaching workshops and helping others learn to paint and access their inner child. This has been very fulfilling for me and I am passionate about it. 

My mentorship program brings me great joy as I work with the participants on a deeper level to help them grow. 

There are still days that I feel like I am riding the wrong horse on the carousel.

These days I am checking in with myself often, going deeper in my thoughts to really get in touch. 

Everything comes back to purpose and values. 

Living a rich meaningful life is my ultimate goal. 

What are the next steps on my journey? 

Time will tell. 

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The Aftermath of a Workshop

TThe Aftermath of a Workshop

Leftover Paint!

I can't see it go to waste so I grab a canvas and start playing. This is how I start my work but with a bit more thought about my palette. 

My focus now is to just use up the leftovers. Every colour imaginable!  Here is what started to emerge. I started to see flowers so I added some white lines. Scroll down to see the finished painting. 

Some negative painting-

to further define the shapes and calm down the painting. Some additional paint to unify the shapes and voila! "Spring Flowers"  have arrived!

I think it is time! I don;t often paint flowers or with pink but I am ready! Change is good too! 

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Paint From Your Heart

Paint from your Heart

What does paint from your heart mean? 

For me it means painting my truth. Painting what stirs us, what we are passionate about. We need to have a connection with what we paint to give the painting energy. We need to be true to our own artistic voice. 

So how do we do this? 

Ask yourself - what takes your breath away -to see, to touch, to hear, to smell? What story do you want to tell? What causes a deep stir within you? What do you love? What is important to you? 

I paint intuitively - never knowing where my painting will end up. 

I start by being playful on my canvas - messing around with colour and texture, Using different tools including fingers and scrapers to apply paint. Anything that will make a mark is fair game. 

I create visual texture with many different items most of which are from the recycle bin - bubble wrap, Styrofoam deli trays, corrugated cardboard, mesh citrus bags and the list goes on! 

I use many mediums - acrylic paint, pastes and gels, crayons, pastels, graphite sticks - anything is fair game. 

I draw, scribble, write, make marks, finger paint, create drips and dribbles by spraying water

After all the fun I step back and meditate on the painting - I listen to what it is telling me, how it makes me feel. 

I look for shapes, messages, and imagery in the chaos. 

Once it becomes clear what the painting is about I start to develop it using the technique of negative painting. 

I respond to the canvas by listening. 

This is how I get my inner truth paintings. They are always a surprise! 

Some take a long time to develop others fall out of my brush. 

If you do work from a photo make sure you are passionate about it and that you give yourself some creative license. I see too many artists getting hung up on trying to make their painting look like the photo. Is this really your truth or did you just copy a photo? 

I encourage you to dig deeper, to listen to your inner voice and paint what is your passion.

"When you work you are a flute through whose heart the whispering of the hours turns to music. To love life through labor is to be intimate with life’s innermost secret. All work is empty save when there is love, for work is love made visible.”

Kahlil Gibran

        Be Passionate            


      what you paint!

If you are curious about painting intuitively and would like to have some guidance to get started you may be interested in my workshop "Paint from Your HeART".

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Do you Paint in Your Pajamas?

                                                               and other questions you have asked


    Where do you get your inspiration?

    For the most part I paint intuitively so am really inspired by my day to day life. I mostly paint figurtive work and abstract landscapes. I am inspired my nature, music, poetry and quotes. 

    How do you get it all done?

  First of all that is a myth - I don't get it all done! It is a well known fact that high achievers have lots of unfinished projects. Count me in on that! There are several reasons I get a lot done. I work a lot! My art is my business and my livelihood. I set goals and intentions. I schedule and create lists. I use software that keeps me on track. I still like to use a large paper daytimer. I plan my year, my month, my week and my day. I try hard to stay on target. I am mindful of time wasters. I have learned to say no to events and people that don't serve me. 

  When do you create?

 I have no set time so it varies from day to day depending on what else is on my schedule (I have 2 other businesses so I am often booked with appointments during the day.) I am not so good at creating at night anymore! If I have deadlines I am working on I go in my studio in the early morning around 5.00 and work until 7.00 or 8.00 before I start my real day. I find this easier to do in the summer when it is light out. I often grab a couple of hours in the late afternoon. 

Do you paint everyday? 

I try to although sometimes it is only for 10 minutes. 

How do you get into your flow state? 

I use a centering exercise or my chakra chimes to quickly get into a deep relaxed space where I am most creative. 

How do you stay so organized?

It is a facade! I work hard at it though. I categorize my tasks and bundle them together and spend chunks of time doing them. I use a pomodora timer to stay focused. I plan my menu and make meals ahead. I try hard not to multitask. I categorize all my art supplies and label them. 

What do you do to relax?

I try to go for a walk everyday - not only to relax but to create energy. Most days I either have a sauna or bath to unwind before bed. I journal and play the harp. 

When you are not working what do you do?

Well there is not to much time left over but I do like to schedule in music events several times a month. In the summer I enjoy getting out in the canoe and going camping. I like poking around in antique stores and home decor stores. 

How do you stay motivated? 

I have never had a problem with motivation probably because I have always loved my job. I have been self employed since 1983. I have worked from home since 1991. 

 Do you paint in your pajamas?

No! I am always dressed before I start my day. 

How old where you when you had your first business? 

I was thirteen. I sold Regal greeting cards door to door. I lived in the country so this was a lot of miles on a bike. 

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Is Fear Holding you back


Sometimes fear masquerades as procrastination.

Are you scared to try new things - fearful that you won't be good at or you will fail? Are you scared to take a step to express your creativity because you can't even draw a straight line or you have always been told you weren't creative or that your brother or sister got all the talent in your family. Are you paralyzed by the thought of trying? Conjuring up worst case scenarios? Are you scared to enter a juried competition for fear of rejection? Are you afraid to take risks with your art work in fear of failing?

What if instead we focused on the positive aspect.

What if it was just an experiment. .......we cannot fail if we are experimenting. What if I actually did succeed - how would I feel? What if I did win? What if I did get accepted into the juried show. What about remembering other times in our life we have had success and imagine it could happen again with this new experience. And so what if we fail! Realistically what is the worst possible thing that could happen? How would you bounce back? Are your fears even real or validated or have they just grown into something larger than life? What if you wrote about in you journal or shared your thoughts with your best friend? Get your fears out of your head! Maybe a change in mindset is all that is needed. What if you just took a baby step - dip your toes in! Start moving forward one small step at a time. You will build momentum and your self confidence will grow.

So what are you waiting for?

If you have always wanted to do art  why not sign up for a workshop. If you are stuck in your art or don't know how to finish an evaluation/critique might be helpful. If you want to move forward in a big way with your art I have a year long  mentorship program.