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When Dreams Change



Dreams Change

It was always a dream of mine to become a full time practicing artist.

I made that dream a reality in 2009. At first, I loved it and spent many hours creating. I was going in the right direction to achieve my dream and having some success doing it. That felt right for awhile but I started getting more and more disenchanted with my dream!  

I started to have dis-ease in my heart. 

I was feeling empty. Don't get me wrong - creating is a very important part of who I am. But somehow this dream wasn't totally fulfilling like I thought it would be. 

There was something missing. Being a full-time artist felt selfish and indulgent. The only connection I had was to my art and creativity. I did not have any real human connection. I wasn't serving anyone! 

I am a very introverted person and at the same time, I need deep meaningful conversations. 

I felt empty. I had always been in a career where I served people and this was the missing component. Creativity alone was not filling my heart. 

I needed more!  

I started teaching workshops and helping others learn to paint and access their inner child. This has been very fulfilling for me and I am passionate about it. 

My mentorship program brings me great joy as I work with the participants on a deeper level to help them grow. 

There are still days that I feel like I am riding the wrong horse on the carousel.

These days I am checking in with myself often, going deeper in my thoughts to really get in touch. 

Everything comes back to purpose and values. 

Living a rich meaningful life is my ultimate goal. 

What are the next steps on my journey? 

Time will tell. 

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The Aftermath of a Workshop

TThe Aftermath of a Workshop

Leftover Paint!

I can't see it go to waste so I grab a canvas and start playing. This is how I start my work but with a bit more thought about my palette. 

My focus now is to just use up the leftovers. Every colour imaginable!  Here is what started to emerge. I started to see flowers so I added some white lines. Scroll down to see the finished painting. 

Some negative painting-

to further define the shapes and calm down the painting. Some additional paint to unify the shapes and voila! "Spring Flowers"  have arrived!

I think it is time! I don;t often paint flowers or with pink but I am ready! Change is good too! 

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Is Clutter Holding You back?

Is Clutter Holding You Back? 

My word this year is FOCUS. As I have been trying hard to stay focused I have become increasingly more aware of how clutter affects me. 

Visual clutter seems to lead to mind clutter! Even if the clutter is not apparent on the outside - it is there when I open the drawer.  

When I grew up spring and fall cleaning was a ritual. Clearing through closets, washing walls and windows, putting everything in order. 

Doing this changes the energy. Somehow I have not adopted this practice, I blame it on my day to day busyness. I always do the filing cabinet at year end- cleaning out the previous year's files and putting them into storage. It seems general purging gets left behind. 

In the last couple of weeks, I have had several conversations around energy. I started rereading my books on Feng Shui, I met a Fung Shui practitioner, an energy healer and was introduced to energy work through my harp teacher. 

The universe has an amazing way of showing us what we need to hear if we are ready to listen! 

Decluttering helps to remove blockages that stop the flow of energy and creativity. 

Creating art is all about flow- you can see that there is a direct correlation between your creativity, your productivity and your energy. If things are a mess it is easy to procrastinate and makes it harder to get started. 

 Do you have clutter in your studio? 

It can be overwhelming  - chunk it down into small size bites. Here is a list to get you started. 

       1. Clean one drawer or bin at a time.

       2. Donate seldom used items to less fortunate.

       3. Throw away dried up paint and pens

        4. Recycle damaged matts and papers

 I have to go tackle


drawer now.

     Will you be joining me?